I'm pretty glad I can talk about my accident without being so scared anymore..
But it is still scary. What happened. Hearing about what exactly happened now.. it's odd.
And it sucks that it almost happened on my darling flyer. I was praying hard she wasn't in the same condition as what people desribed of mine after the fall..
But I'm glad she's not. Glad she's fine now.. and didn't have to go through the evil drip. and etc.
Love, ja
2:23 AM
♥ Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Someone just tell me what to do.
How to not train but perform well..
Of course I care about the welfare of my squad.. The last thing I want is for any one to be injured..
Having more doubts in this sport we're doing.. the sport we're working so hard for..
I'm confused.. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm scared.. I don't want any of my flyers to be injured. And I don't wanna fall anymore. I really don't.
And all the pressure on me. The responsibility. I'm willing to bear the responsibility.. but it's getting too much. People are expecting so much of me. All the people who think they're right.. think they understand. But no one except us will. They don't understand what we have to go through.
I just really don't know what I should do anymore..