All about balancing*

Okay now I feel like rambling.
Just this afternoon as I was blogging I wanted to write about not regretting joining four sports despite not being in the main team for most of them. 'Cause at least I've learnt three new sports and continued keeping in touch with touch rug which i love. Around five hours later and I'm thinking maybe I shouldn't have done that.
It's so so difficult turn up for every single training for my sports and cheerleading. True that I probably feel more for touch and cheerleading, but I do try very hard to commit to all the sports. I try but it's impossible to seem like I'm committed 'cause I miss so many trainings when they clash. I know I can't blame them for thinking this way, but I bet people think I'm a slacker and I don't give a damn about the sports that I tend to go for less. But I do. I may feel lazy sometimes, complain, hope it rains whatever. At the end of the day if I can make it, I will try my best to make it for trainings. I feel bad each time I tell the captains I can't make it for training. I want to be a good player, I want to improve and I want to know my teammates well. But after missing so many trainings it's difficult to catch up.. it's difficult to fit in with everyone. It sucks knowing I could have learnt more, it sucks knowing people think I don't care.
But oh wells, all my ihg sports will end by this sunday. Then I won't be complaining about this anymore.

Go volleyball and soccer girls!

After that it'll be just cheerleading and studying. Studying wise I just really gotta buck up a lot. I've told myself this since who knows when. The third week of school is almost over and I don't see myself anymore hardworking than last sem. Oh no.
Cheerleading.. I just hope things will get better. For the whole squad and for myself. It's scary knowing there are very very few trainings left before ihg closing and same for cheerobics. And for me.. all the falls have been pretty scary. It feels two hundred times worse when I'm the only flyer who's landing on the ground all the time. And I don't know why. Whether it's my fault. If I'm just unlucky, perhaps i'm too heavy, or what. Anyways just cross my fingers n hope i won't fall again.

'Cause I'm scared I won't be able to take it anymore..

Love, ja
9:03 PM

This is all I've been doing in hall,

Laundry, laundry and more laundry. Wash, dry, fold, wash dry, fold.

Fold until back pain. Xiong ehh. heh. But then again i get a sense of satisfaction after i fold everything :P

Okay so besides laundry, lots has happened. It'll take a thousand years for me to write about everything. I can't really remember anyways. But in summary it's been pretty eventful and quite tiring. Bah, I've lost the inspiration to blog.

Bye.

Love, ja
4:24 PM