Yikes my half written post disappeared 'cause there was some problem with explorer. Oh wells. Now i'm in a worse mood. Played touch with teammates and seniors today. First time playin in ages and going under the sun. I'm burnt now, not that I'm complaining. Won't mind getting a bit of tan back. People say I look pale and sickly when I'm in my fair state. It was pretty strenuous considering the lack of exercise and I'm now aching slightly more than this morning..
I didn't want to lose my temper although i was seriously quite upset. And i didn't. Tonight I did and I was pretty mean..though at least it was online and I guess the impact is smaller. I guess I'm in no position to, but i'm glad that at least [i think] the person understands me and won't blame me. I'm sorry. Then again I meant almost everything I said.
Love, ja
11:51 PM
♥ Thursday, December 15, 2005
Quite a different 6H gathering we had last night! We met at maomao's house first [thanks so much for lending us your house!]. Xian and I were attempting to style mine and xinyi's hair and well we weren't exactly very successful but it was pretty fun. Heh. Went for dinner at the nasi lemak shop near mao's house then headed to town. We were the first ones to reach china black and there was no one checkin our ids or anything! So we jus went into the club freely without anyone stopping us. We were told that it wasn't open yet so we were planning to hide in there or camouflage or something heh. But being honest kids, we didn't. When it was time we went in and thank goodness the guy allowed xian, xinyi and i in 'cause student passes were supposedly 'strictly not allowed'. We were one of the first ones there and it was really empty. Oh it feels great to not have to pay for any of the drinks + admission. I can't say the atmosphere was absolutely relaxed.. but enjoyed sitting there with them. Alcoholic drinks are not very nice. I wonder why there is even a need for someone to smoke. To reduce stress, sadness? Aren't there many other healthier ways. And really, will a person never smoke again after his depression or whatever is over? I highly doubt so. In fact I'm pretty sure that person will just become a full time smoker in future. I really dislike smokers. And I really wish that none of my friends will become smokers. In fact I dare say I don't want any smoker as a friend. I know that sounds extreme.. but really if only that could be. It's one thing to hear or even know that a friend smokes, it's another thing to see that friend smoking. It really saddens me. Maybe because even when I know a friend smokes, I'll choose to not believe it. Or hope that some day it'll stop. Dear friends, please don't smoke..
So after what seemed like ages and we got a little bored sitting there, people started streaming in and finally finally people started dancing. The place wasn't as crowded as I thought it would be. Met some NJ girls and wenting there too. Dancing's fun and very exhausting. Or maybe it's due to the fac that I haven't exercised in ages. The second round of dancing was better, more high and everything. But I guess the music could have been better. So there goes, 6H's first time clubbing together.
We had supper then headed back to yisheng's house. Throughout the whole night.. we actually talked quite a lot. About rather serious stuff too. I'm shocked at.. how many bad people exist. That's quite vague but ya. I was sad, at times happy for friends. Amused? Touched that a few are willing to share. Marvelled at how lucky some of them are, sorry for things that have gone wrong. Hopeful for things to become better for them. But yet I felt a sense of.. something.. for myself. Something I probably dare not say 'cause it's incredibly stupid. I've always been oversensitive. Upset about things that are almost nothings to other people. Being dumb holding on to nothing. Caring about stuff others do not care about anymore. Maybe I just take a longer time to forget. And it sure sucks. Sometimes I don't just cause my own misery with this oversensitiveness. I worry and get angry over things my friends do. Seems like concern and care for them but I'm actually just being a busybody meddling with their affairs. I have to stop I know. But where's the line to stop? Or do I just ignore whatever friends might be doing.. letting them be. Since I'm in no position to care.
I love happy endings. When will I experience one myself?
Love, ja
11:24 PM
♥ Monday, December 12, 2005
Many many photos of the manymanymany photos we took in korea!!
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Korean airport! us at the da chang jin film site! No idea why there were so many scarecrows heh. Cute bears! On mount xue yue or sth like that i like this picture! and i took it of course :P Family in front of Buddha's statue
Oh I never knew almost half of the korean population are buddhists and they celebrate chinese festivals and follow chinese traditions. Quite cool. They get public holidays for mid-autumn festival and qing ming jie too!
me and minghui! Doggie! I think very few koreans have doggies, only saw four doggies there. Our reflections! My handprint! At the top of the mountain! high level course! pro sia :P I love this picture! Everything's so white and snowy! cutey thingalings On the cable car down the hill! Very ugly pose i know.. :$ me, papa, minghui! me, mama and minghui! Pretending to be the korean star :P Whoosh! Mama's turn! papa! minghui, mama and i with our rented sled (: Snow* At the balcony Ligers! Tigers and lions cross bred! Pretty christmas deco! Cartwheeling down the corridor (: Ghost! And the foot. Heavy lids only the strong me can lift. :D Cutie pie from fellow CTC tour group. Wanted to take the photo secretly.. but unfortunately the flash went off and she uh. Got a shock. Flying kick! Cool stuff ;) [I mean my photography :P] Christmas flowers! My first time seeing white ones. Lotte world :) Merry-go-round I so wanted to go on mama and papa on the bridge to magic island! Shopping achievements! minghui and i against a very cool building papa and the very nice photographer! byebyee korea. on my way to the airport..
Finally!!
Love, ja
2:34 AM
♥ Sunday, December 11, 2005
hii i'm back from korea! It was cooollllldd. brrrr.
Oh before I blog about korea let me thank the people who made that night fun! My dearest S14 girls of course, the make up artiste, touch rug darlings and all my friends :D
Fave photos!
S14 girls all set and pretty (: NJ 6Hers!! Darling ruggers :)) post prom! self timed. heart attack!
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Koreaa hmm. I wasn't very excited about the trip to begin with. It was just QUITE fun not VERY fun. There were times I was really really pissed off but let's forget those. Skiing was really tiring! Not for the legs but for the arms. Had to remove the skis, lug them up the slope and ski down so many times. But it was fun (: And it wasn't cold. It snowed at the ski park and it was very pretty! Cos there was so much snow all around (: I did see a few korean stars there, but, only on ads and posters :( Saw some quite good looking korean guys but almost all of the snowboarders were darn cool! I wanna snowboard one day! Maybe it was 'cause of the ski goggles, headwear and everything too which hid most of their faces. What else.. lotte world was pretty!! With the christmas deco and everything too. Too bad we had very little time there. My sister and I tried a few quite scary rides! Scary rides that I had no chance to go on when i was younger 'cause of the height limit :| Now I pass it with flying colours hee. Didn't try the SCARIEST rides though 'cause my sister didn't dare to! And of course I wouldn't dare to go alone. Heh. Next time I hope! The food was quite repititive and there were a few meals in which meat was the main dish so bleaughs. But I like korean rice, a little bit like jap rice. And luckily I quite like kimchi if not I'd have absolutely nothing to eat during many of the meals. Ohh one very sad thing. I didn't see xiaoxinyi at all in korea although we reached and left on the same days! How irritating. We should just go holidaying together one day (: Lalala.. so now I'm back and glad to get away from the weather. Will miss Korea a little though. Posting some pictures up soon!
