I am glad hall admin is so willing to help us out this year and is coming up with new opportunities for us. But the supposed order of events is messed up, people are not cooperating with me, things are not confirmed. Only a simple request, set long ago. Why can't they just abide my request? They have their reasons and I try to understand. But I have my difficulties too, and why does no one understand?
Was I too soft hearted? I wanted to let them have a chance to try out the sport they're passionate about. But now I can't let everyone pursue their interest to the end, not for this year. And I'm feeling bad, really bad. Everyone of them is already so dear to me. Dreading the day I'll disappoint them.
They do help me. In some way or another. And I appreciate it. But why does it seem like i'm the only one who's really concerned. The only one who's responsible, the only one who bothers. Maybe I'm weak.. But being the only one who initiates is difficult.
I'm tired, I really am, already am. But I cannot give up now. Definitely can't.
Love, ja
3:27 PM
♥ Tuesday, November 06, 2007
Thankk youuu. So nicely done, really very touched (:
Feeling the pressure for me to start studying. It's been steppers steppers steppers for the past few weeks. Lagging behind in studies again which really shouldn't be the case.
I promise myself to start studying hard from now on. I shall finish my tutorial before I sleep! Go Jia Hui!