I shall force myself to come up with a few resolutions here if not i'll probably end up with none. I got too sian by the end of last night's entry so i didn't come up with any.
Sidetrack a little first. I just looked back on my old entries attempting to find my 2006 resolutions. Think i came up with none. But I saw my 2005 ones.. n resolution no. 4 was to spend lots n lots of time with Patchy. Sigh, I'll never get to do that again.. I came up with 17 that year, think I'll do with fewer this year.
Hmmmms.
1. Act like a -studying- student. No wait, not act. Be. 2. Spend more time with non-hall friends. 3. Spend more time with family. 4. Read more. News, novels, whatever. 5. Lose weight. 1-2kg at least? I'm not just being vain k. Must think of the poor bases who have to carry a pigload of me. 6. Not to repeat the same mistake I did the past few years. I think I can do it this time. 7. Be a nicer person. 8. Hm, to live a fuller life in general I guess.
Can't think of anything else for now!
Love, ja
12:17 AM
♥ Monday, January 01, 2007
2006 has gone and 2007 has come! I'm actually quite in shock. It doesn't feel like a new year has started. Probably 'cause 2006 has been a weird year, it did not start with me being a grade higher in school, having to pack my bag with new textbooks and prepare [and dread] to go to school during the first week of jan. And the years that follow will never start the way they always started since I was a pri 1 kid again. Take for instance now. It's first of jan and I'm back in hall 'cause I have two trainings tomorrow. Funny start to a year. Okays maybe it's not that funny, but i just feel kinda funny-ish. 2006. I experienced a semi working life. Scooping icecream, coaching students. Got my first pay check, taught my first students. And then uni life started, and I stayed in hall away from home. So many new experiences in a year, I guess that was why the year really flew past. Despite the new things I tried, I feel like I haven't accomplished much. 'Cause I really didn't. Didn't make use of the free time I had after A's very well, didn't work hard as a student when uni started.. Really could have done better. And of course, probably the worst thing that ever happened to me took place. My dearest baby patchy passed away.. on 25th September. I regret so, so much for not being home that day. Not being there to see him for the last time, or perhaps even preventing whatever happened to him. Not letting him get injured, or sending him to the vet earlier.. Or at least just be there for him. I still miss him, miss him lots. And it still hurts so so much to know the fact that I'll never see him again. It really does. I love all dogs, I still do. But I can't help but feel a wave of sadness when I see them now. It seems so unfair.. I haven't got used to the house without him around. It's so quiet, and seems to always be lacking of something, someone. It scares me to not see patchy where he used to be. I can't bring myself to walk around the garden 'cause I just can't and don't want to believe he's not around anymore.. It really sucks. Really.. Now I kinda wish 2006 was never here. It never passed.. But it did. I just hope 2007 will be a much better one.. I gotta start setting some serious resolutions and stick to them. Meanwhile, do take care loads friends. And may all of u have a truly happy new year.
